I wish i knew!

I wish i could tell you i have it all together today, but i cannot.  It has been a long day.  A day of struggling to not allow my wants to over power the truth. I wish i could say today was a really successful day in allowing God to stretch me and mold me into something different, but i cannot.  It has been a day of struggling to keep my thoughts on what God would have me do instead of filling in the blanks my way.  I moved forward 3 steps today, only to be pushed back 2.  I wish i knew how to ALWAYS keep things in perspective but sometimes i stumble, and today seems to be one of those days. 

Life on earth is short and all i am guaranteed is this moment, so i need to make the most of it.  This moment regardless of what is going on i must choose to "Praise Him".  As we continue to wander thru a silent season, i am guaranteed God is holding us all in the palm of His hands.   As we pine for the boys we have to keep our minds focused on the truth we know: God is working out the situation for our boys best!  We can't just quit while we wait we must keep doing what we know to be right.  Putting today into perspective is looking outside of my situation and being the hands and feet of Jesus to hurting friends around me.  It is putting my aching heart on the back shelf and being available to others.  A blog dated April 13 from a young lady that i believe has it in perspective at  http://kissesfromkatie.blogspot.com/ has helped me tremendously today.  I hope you'll consider reading it.

I wish i knew why a young lady buried her child today.  I wish i knew why people are getting devastating diagnosis', i wish i knew why marriages are falling apart, i even wish i knew what to say, i don't.  But Jesus knows!  He knows how to comfort the hurting because He feels thier pain.  As i am given the blessing of seeking Jesus on others behalf, He helps me put this short life back in perspective.  He helps me change my focus, He helps me move out of myself, He helps me release it all to Him.  He is BIG enough to handle it all.

There is alot of stuff i wish i knew but i don't. As a matter of fact every day i turn older i am becoming more aware of how little i know.  So although i don't know very much, this i do:  Jesus loves me and you!  And He has our back!  I'm going to lean into Him a little harder, hope you will to!   Good Night, LeAnn