so close but not quite there...

you know 6 months before vacation your eager but it's ok... BUT 6 weeks before vacation, the wait begins to seem SO LONG...  i feel like we've been in the 6 week wait for A LONG TIME and that we've even done it a couple of times!!!

every time i think we are fixing to get the go ahead to book our flight... theres another "oh but you must wait on this"...  or "oh but this has to happen first"... being so close but yet not there, is emotionally draining...

so much has happened... since feb 24, 2010 when we began our paperwork... since may 30, 2011 when we mailed them their family photo albums...  since august 2011 when we hung welcome signs on their doors...  since sept 2011 when they started the English speaking school because our travel was RIGHT AROUND THE CORNER :)...  so much has changed... but not the turmoil inside...

my heart aches daily for them... my mind resketches their faces again and again... i walk by their rooms late in the evening when all are asleep praying for them again and again...  i wonder what they ate in a day... did anyone ask how they are... the wait is so hard... we are so close BUT not quite there...

i know Jesus is watching over all and knows whats best and i cling to Him tightly... however, i'd be lying if i said anything other than this mommas heart is aching for her boys...