Well i had one of those moments today, (kinda like an ah-hah moment) and then i had to force myself to bring every "thought captive and obedient" unto my Lord. It was a struggle to be quite honest.
Everybody had already left for church this am, but three of us. Due to sickness in the family i had chosen to stay behind. I had sat down for a moment and as i did i looked around, and i have to admit this is just not how i envisioned this part of my life.
Honestly i had already drawn the picture book of my life for the next several years and what i was staring into the face of... was not what was in my book. See up until a couple of months ago i thought i was doing a pretty good job of juggling all my balls. My house was always clean with the fuzzy throws folded just right. My kids were in an awesome private school and enjoying it. I was teaching two, sometimes three Bible studies a week. I was exercising atleast three times a week. Our four shit-tzus were always fed and clean. The laundry was typically a load or two from being done. I slept almost 8 hours EVERYNIGHT!! And i was good and dolled up everytime i left the house with accessories to match. As i took in the sights around me this morning i have to say "Wow" what can change in a couple of months.
So with that in mind let's review what my life looks like today. My house is never clean and most days you will find piles of clothes and baby items on my dining room table. My three daughters are homeschooled (and yes only by the grace of God are we making it). Thier school work is covering every square inch of my office and thier trash. I am doing good to make it to each of my Bible studies prepared and dressed, without spit up on my clothes or a child in tow. Exercise, really?? i sneak out and walk as often as i can. Our pups are definitely fed, but being clean is questionable... The laundry pile is just downright funny most days. Last night i was up at 11, 1 and 4, (ha! that was a good night). And i surprised my good friend Chris the other day by showing up with my make up on. ARE YOU KIDDING!!!!!
This is so different than i imagined, but it is my life... every piece of dirty laundry, the sleep in my eyes, the dirty diaper on the counter, and the math sheet to be done, the baby swing in the kitchen (that i thought i'd never see again), the nasty dog bone on my couch yet again and the unmade beds for the third day in a row, it is all mine... allowed and written into my life by the One Above. He alone knows the plan and is calling the plays... i am simply supposed to play my best on the field i've been placed.
So... although i still don't have my boys home like i thought we would and we have had the blessing of unexpected family guests and my house is not at all like it once was... this is where my journey finds me today... simply doing the things God places in front of me. And it feels so right. I am trying in His strength to love the people He is putting in my path WELL, laughing at the chaos i call life today with a gut roll and dancing to His song in my head when no one is looking. A day in the life of the Newsoms!
It is definitely different than what i imagined but it is the ride of a lifetime... His and Mine! LeAnn
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