if we wait til we can handle something... we'll do nothing...

i caught myself singing the lyrics to jingle bells a little while ago and i got so tickled... i love life... as stinky and as hard as sometimes it can be... i love life...  it doesn't negate my desire for life in heaven... it just makes it stronger... because there will be none of the stinky parts and the good parts will be better...  so... while i long for my new home i am going to enjoy every second of my time here until i leave for it... so as the lyrics of the song go... i will be laughing all the way...

the kids are all away this afternoon and i've been preparing for a Bible study for January...  when i looked around a minute ago i began to belly laugh yet AGAIN!  if the social worker came today that would be it... i would be deemed unsuitable...  besides the fact i've been at the computer all day and i am unshowered... here is what i see when i look around...

yes, thats my desk under all those books and papers :)

and yeah that is a tall ladder in the middle of our foyer (that has been there since saturday when we began the decorations)  and behind it... that is our table covered in decorations, also there since sat :)

so i laughed outloud at the thought of adding more to our household (as many others have)... more to the chaos we call home... more to the craziness of the Newsom clan...  is this really the time Lord??

however something i've found to be true with me and lots of others is this... if we wait until we think we can handle something or when we can afford it, we most often end up doing nothing...  so why not now? 

interesting thing i have found about God's timing and His will verses mine is that He doesn't ask me if i think i can handle something, nor does He request a time frame that i am willing to do His will in, nor does He even ask if it is a good time for me and my family, HE SIMPLY ASKS IF I AM AVAILABLE AND WILLING TO OBEY!   

and the resounding answer is YES LORD SEND ME!!  wherever, whenever, however, to do whatever...  that includes opening my home for MORE TO LOVE...  for MORE TO SHARE THE LOVE OF THE FATHER WITH... yes and for more to join in the chaos we call home...

how grateful i am JESUS was WILLING to be available and obedient so that I would know the Fathers love...

as i was closing this tree caught my eye... so i had to snap a shot and include it... it is the tree i cherish most... it is in my office (so the kids won't throw away the ornaments)... it is full of amazing memories... it has ornaments all over it that the kids have made and given me over the years... although they complain about them... they come in and reminence over all the fond memories that we have had over the years... they have NEVER complained once about the chaos that surrounded the time frame of each of the ornaments but instead they smile and laugh about the family that was there walking with them through each step of thier life that the ornaments represent...  why wouldn't i want to share that :)

Can i handle it... IF GOD SAYS SO!!