Saturday, January 3, 2015

A New Year...

last night i laid in bed tossing and turning until sometime after 3 a.m.
i was assaulted again and again with my failures as a parent.
at one point i left the bed and hit the floor face down before the Lord...
begging for His guidance and relief. 

we have faced so many "NEWS" this past year in parenting.
i cannot count on fingers and toes how many times we have said...
"did that really happen?"

nothing prepared us for the trials we dealt with behind the doors this past year...
but God faithfully walked us through it. 

this year we got a front row seat to the fact that as faithful as our God is... 
the enemy is as equally relentless.
he just keeps shooting arrows in the shadows, hoping for a chance to bring us down,
to tire us out, to bring us low on our belief of a better day.
and for some reason... last night he seemed to have gotten my number. 

how is it you can go from a Christmas morning overwhelmed with gratitude
for all that we have been blessed with: (sorry for the blur)

to laying in bed unable to sleep overwhelmed by failures???
A very real enemy that loves to prey on us.  

God specializes in making beautiful masterpieces out of our messes,
failures and weaknesses.  
and the truth is: the enemy has no real power over me, except what i allow him to have.

i have the chance every second of every day to choose God's voice,
over the world, other people and certainly the enemy. 

Jesus said, "I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. 
In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world." (John 16:33)

Maybe you don't need a reminder but i sure did as i rolled out of bed this am...

as we enter into this new year, we can enter it with complete belief that 
He is on our side.  we can cast our burdens onto Him and He will carry them for us!

That is enough to excite me about this brand new year...
 and help me ride the waves of trial as we journey through it :)

Happy 2015!