Saturday, August 25, 2012

My MBA degree

just for the record...
i am a glass half full kinda girl...
 
so with that said... let me share...
 
i'm not sure exactly what i thought 
that adding two boys to the already chaotic mix would look like...
but the reality is... it is hard! 
GODS PERFECT PLAN but hard!
 
and as i struggled through another day on wednesday...
(testy, whiny, frustrated... must i say more)...
my God who has such a sense of humor...
and who loves me and you so much,
decided it was time for this little
spoiled girl to get an "object lesson"
concerning her attitude :)
 
i don't know about your life...
but in my life... these are always painful...
PERFECT but painful!
 
so the kids and i had gone to a food distribution center to work,
to bag food, pack food, distribute food... (you get it)
and that's exactly what we were doing,
when God who knows my heart
decided i had some work to be done!
 
i had walked to find a shopping cart
when i noticed coming out of the bottom of a trash can...
beginning to cover the concrete floor...
orange thick liquid... ugggggggg...
cracked gallons of sunny d!
 
i stepped over it... and walked onward...
to complete what i was working on,
when God spoke quietly to my
ridiculously selfish spirit...
and the words were clear.... 
change your attitude... GET A MOP!
 
let's be transparent...
here is the childish thought i had...
"now wait a minute...
i came to distribute food,
and if i get in that mess... i can't!
i'll be covered..."
and i heard it again... 
change your attitude... GET A MOP!
 
so i began the process of finding a mop...
finding a bucket...
running some water...
and mopping the floor!
 
 
and during that exercise of humility...
(for a very stubborn girl)...
God in His sweetness
gave me a hard, gentle reminder as i heard His voice again...
speaking quietly...
 
"learn from me, LeAnn...
a heart of love and humility
is what i am teaching you...
in humility, love does what is needed!"
 
awwwwwwwwww! 
i hate being reminded i have
fallen into selfishness yet again!
 
see in all that is happening in our home...
i lost perspective...
i began looking at the obstacles of each day...
instead of the God i serve...
i become focused on the things that needed to be done,
instead of the people i was to love!
 
i had gotten lost in the grind of the days...
and had forgotten to gird myself with a towel
and wash anothers feet...
 
this is the love i know from my Savior,
and the call i have as His disciple. 
 
so He lovingly reminded me as i mopped
of my agreeing to a
*MBA degree
(mop bucket attitude - degree)
when i willingly chose to follow Him!
 
*MBA degree
i did not coin this phrase... i just use it alot...
if you have not heard of this before here is
where it comes from...
 
Dave Thomas, the founder of Wendy’s Hamburgers,
once appeared on the cover of the companies’ corporate annual report. 
He was dressed in a knee-length work apron
with a mop in one hand and a bucket in the other. 
When asked to describe the picture, here is what he said…
“I got my M.B.A. long before I got my G.E.D. 
At Wendy’s, M.B.A. does not stand for
“Masters of Business Administration”,
 instead it means “Mop Bucket Attitude”. 
 
 
 
 
 
 



Monday, August 13, 2012

bath day :)



my life looks just like yours...
FULL...

full of...
doctor's appts, dentist appts, orthodontist appts,
athletic practices... language tutoring...
school supply shopping... dog patrol...
house work... laundry duty...
and on and on and on...

in these FULL days i often times
get so busy with my TO DO LIST,
 that i forget, that above all else...
 i am to SHINE THE LIGHT OF CHRIST...
beginning in my home!

this was certainly the case on saturday...
as my patience began to seep away!

between the shout outs...

"pick up your clothes!",
"don't feed that to the dog!",
"what is that and how long has it been in your room?"
"cheese curls are not a breakfast food!"
"the floor is not a pool!"
"i am not air conditioning the outdoors!"
"no! sugar is not a necessary food group!"
"don't hit your brother!"
"yes twisting in a pretzel is considered wrestling!"
enough, right?!...

i was discussing my waining disposition with the Lord...
when i decided that for therapy i would wash the puppies
(yes i have considered professional counseling) :))

and during that TIME OUT for mommy,
God showed up!!

not in the way i had hoped...
to bring discipline to those rowdy kids,
instead He in His sovereignty
brought discipline to a momma...
that needed some perspective!

see as i placed Marlee in the sink,
she shook and whined and moved...
when all i was trying to do was help her.
she was dirty and stinky,
but she wanted no part of the cleaning!

as i tried to speak soothing words over her
she couldn't hear them for trying so hard to remove
herself from the bathing area!

even though somewhat uncomfortable for her,
what i was trying to do was for her good...
but she was fighting against it...
making what should have been easy
so much harder!

as i held her tight in the towel,
lovingly reminding her...
how much i love her and
only want to care for her...

i heard God CLEAR!!

ugggggggggggggggggh!!
WHEN WILL I GET IT!

i am Marlee,
shaking, whining and moving...
when i know that
God allows what i need for my best!!
to be my best for HIS GLORY!!

it's not about me and my comforts,
it is about HIM and HIS KINGDOM!!

as i pray for the "Fruits of the Spirit"...
love, joy, peace,
patience, kindness, goodness,
faithfulness, gentleness and
self-control...

God is bathing me with opportunities to
exercise them...
every second of every day,
beginning in my home!

and if i will see the things that happen
as opportunities to shine HIS LIGHT,
then maybe i won't wiggle so hard...
to get around them!

because here is what i know...
at the end of the bathing experience...
if i will allow His Glory to be revealed...
if i keep things in perspective...
if i allow Him to flow through me...


IT IS ALL WORTH IT!!

every golden chance i am given to
exercise His grace
has been afforded me by Him!

so i will face my bathing today
as what it is...
an opportunity to SHINE HIS LIGHT!


Thursday, August 2, 2012

accepting with praise, what i don't understand!

God continues to turn my world upside down...
and nothing about it feels good,
yet i will choose to PRAISE HIM!

Skyler and i were scheduled to leave for Africa
tomorrow with a team to do vbs with a group of orphans...
but the plan changed...
because...
 we bought tickets to leave tomorrow for Brazil
to pick up Chloe and Emily...
but the plan changed...

all because... God said so!!

i don't understand anything at the moment...
my heart is breaking and aching...
my flesh longs to make sense of it all..
but my Spirit knows He's got it...

so i will simply sit again in the wait...
trusting and praising Him.