learning to end lifes journeys with a comma...

i see things with such limited vision.  

a year ago december, God wrote a book with my hand.  

i know your thinking "oh what a cheesy thing to say!" but, i really mean it.  

i am not a writer, nor do i aspire to be.

but 13 months ago on a two week trip to kenya, 

God wrote an entire 150 page book, i just watched on the front row.

yep, all of it in two weeks.  i couldn't claim it if i wanted... all Him.

quickly after returning home we boarded a plane to go get our girls 

and bring them home from Brazil, so it sat in a notebook.

after we returned home 6 weeks later, life got crazy... adjustment to 7 kids in the house

has a way of becoming necessity... so everything else stopped!

 

eventually the book came up over tea with a friend.

so she joined in to help with where God would have us take it.  

so today in God's perfect timing it was time to finalize the editing process,

chapters 30-36 were to be edited, so the project could be completed and we could

journey to the next phase.

but instead of editing the ending of a story, God rewrote it with the truth of the journey.

i chuckled out loud as God showed me the stupidity of my ways.

i had ended the book with my own words, closed it with finality,

but that is not at all where He was headed.  

i like closure, i try to handle everything with a period.  i want to see the end.

know the fruit of the labor, and that is not what He intended..

He intended for us to learn as we endure, to grow in understanding of who He is as we live, 

for each adventure to be a continuation of growth and surrender to His will.

today sick with a cold and heartbroken over a young ukrainian that now has returned home:

i thought God and i were editing the ending of a book,
but that's not at all what we were doing.

instead God allowed me to sit and watch as He continues His story...
not with a period but with commas.  

to see the open ended way each journey has everything to do with the next. 

i am absolutely convinced that our obedience today

has everything to do with our storyline tomorrow!

i shutter to think of all the story lines i missed because of my

 determination to put a period, how about you?